2008-11-20

I Remember When...




Yet again Mama Kat has given us a wonderful set of prompts to choose from. I must admit this week I am struggling, the creative writing juices just don't seem to be flowing.....

3.) I remember when...


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I struggled more than ever this week. I am blank....

I remember when I could write without hesitation. I remember when it was easy to just sit down and write what I thought. I remember when I thought....well thought more than just about diapers and Gerber and the rising cost of everything.

I remember when I was in high school, I wrote what I wanted, I wrote without fear. I did not worry what anyone thought about what I had to say or to write. I did not worry about what it said about me. I wrote stories, I wrote poetry, I wrote and wrote and wrote. I had journals full, volumes and volumes of my teenage angst and creativity. I was sad, I was angry, I was misunderstood, I was different, I was just like every other teenager I knew...

I don't know what has happened. I feel like a little creative piece of me has gone on hiatus. Maybe it has to do with how content I am in my current situation, maybe it has to do with the fact that I no longer feel the tourment I did when I was a youth. I think it is a fair trade-off, I will take my current life, I will enjoy my happy family and the love I feel daily, even if it means that I have to struggle a little more to write something that someone other than me might want to read, even if it means I blush a little everytime I post a Writer's Workshop, knowing that I am opening up myself to critique....from all the masses (or the few that read my blog anyway).

10 comments:

  1. I also feel like I have writers block. But I agree with you and I'll take my current life anyday!! Have a great day!

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  2. I completely agree! There was a time when I could write these wonderful words with such ease. And now, it takes me days to figure out what to put down. I found a stack of folders from my college years & started reading past papers I had written. It's nice to remind myself that I did in fact have talent and could do something well besides grow people.

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  3. All I can say is that it was a lot easier to write on my blog when no one was reading it!

    Wow, you changed your blog. Looks great!

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  4. I believe that we moms are so focused on raising our children that we tend to put the "intellectual creativity" on the back burner at times. It's a survival mode...I mean, how many times can you read the same story book over and over...and OVER, unless you put your brain in "idle"?!

    Don't be too critical of yourself. I think you're a great writer! :o)

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  5. First off I have to say I AM IN LOVE WITH MY NEW BLOG PAGE! It is SOOOOO me! Thank you!

    Secondly, I know exactly how you feel. Each day, I visit your blog then MckMama's and feel like such a doof that I can barely form a sentence on my own blog. I used to write, and write and write, too. I have journals upon journals of poems, stories, thoughts, all that stuff that you listed. It was the only thing that came easily. I was a middle child, in a dorky stage, trying to meet boys, keep friends, stay close but far to my family...writing was the only thing that came effortlesly. I miss those days but know now that my life is finally complete. I don't have to journal all my thoughts because I have a companion that I can tell my deepest, darkest secrets to.

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  6. I am definitely a different writer than I used to be too. But I am different, period. I'd like to think I've evolved for the better...haha!

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  7. I have read so many posts this week about writer's block. I think it must be the time of year. There is so much going on right now.

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  8. critique?! Nah. not from such bloggie friends!! I didn't use to write for years, but since my bloggy hobby I have improved - practice makes perfect!! (well, better than rubbish anyway!!)

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  9. I stopped writing AND reading when I started having kids. It feels good to be getting back into it again...like I'm getting a little piece of myself back that I didn't know was missing.

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