2009-01-31

Nothing to Call this...

I have been having a rough week. I have been a little blue and a little stressed. I haven't blogged about it because, well its easy to blog about the happy things, the milestones, the joy. Its easy to fill pages with fluff and fun - goofy pictures and fun art projects. I haven't had anything to say that was easy, so I didn't say anything at all. That is something I need to work on...
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I just got up to check on the boys, then I realized they aren't here, they are with their grandparents tonight. I just got up to check on Tommy, I just remembered how truly fortunate I am. You see, just tonight, a sweet little girl, hardly more than a baby, earned her angel wings. Tuesday was only 3 months younger than Tommy, but for some reason it was her time to go. I just got up to go see him, to go remind myself how truly blessed I am right now.

My heart is breaking for the Whitt family, and I am struggling to understand it all.  To understand why a sweet little child needs to go so soon.  

And I am ashamed.  I have had a rough week, I have pretended that things were ok, and I have felt sorry for myself.  And yet tomorrow afternoon I get to pick up my boys and hold them close.  Tomorrow I will play with Tommy and Jack again - see their smiles, smell their wonderful little boy smell.  I am ashamed for feeling so sorry for myself, tomorrow I will play with my babies, but the Whitt family will be missing one of theirs.

10 comments:

  1. Hang in there, dear Liz. My heart goes out to that sweet family. Seems like everyone is being hit hard these days.
    Isn't ironic that we can't wait for a night to ourselves, but when we get it, all we want to do is love on our babies? At least that's how I feel. :)

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  2. Sometimes it is hard to see past our own lives...sad to say, I am that way often. Be strong, things will get better & it is at those rough times we need to look for the good...even amongst the bad.
    Have a great weekend.
    Mimi

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  3. I know what you mean. When I have bad days, I usually choose not to blog about them. Hearing stories like Tuesdays...I just feel like I have no reason to be down.

    Everyone has rough days & weeks and sometimes we have to really realize how blessed we really are.

    Hope this week goes better for you!

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  4. I am very sorry about Tuesday. I can tell you have a really kind heart. It is okay to feel the way you have been feeling. I hope your weekend gets better. I just said a prayer for you and for your friends.

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  5. You are not alone in your thoughts/feelings this week. I too have had moments of sheer frustration with my daughter only to turn around with nothing but guilt because I have her happy and healthy unlike this family. I have cried and prayed for them more than once and can't make sense of such loss. In addition, a two month young baby I've been praying for earned her angel wings last night at 8:35. Though the two have never met I pray they meet and keep eachother company. Thank you for this honest post.

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  6. It's understandable and completely normal for you to have times when you are feeling down! We all go through those feelings at one time or another. So, don't be so hard on yourself. I totally understand what you are saying, though. Sometimes we have to regain our perspective on things. I know I do, anyway! I'm praying that next week will be a great one for you!

    Yes, it is so very sad about Tuesday. It breaks my heart. I'll be praying for her family. I can't imagine their pain.

    Blessings to you...

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  7. I, too have been thinking about Tuesday today.
    I've added you to the NE bloggers list. I hope some of the "Local Favorites" from you blogroll see your button and decide to join us!

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  8. You are not alone. Tuesday has given many of us cause for pause this week. I truly believe God puts us in dark places some days so we can better see His light. The beautiful grace is that He will not keep us there - it is just a moment we are passing through. Please know you are in my prayers. Send some my way, too, ok? It's been a blue funk in my heart as well. We need to carry each other. Galatians 6:2

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  9. *hugs to you* I have been thinking about Tuesday and her family a lot too.

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