Ask MckMama...I didn't do it...nope....I am and always was and always will be a perfect mommy and wife. My laundry is not currently in a pile taller than
I did not laugh when my 2 year old oggled the girl on the cover of the Sports Illustrated magazine we saw while waiting to pay at Walmart the other night. Of course I removed the offensive medium from his line of sight and told him the shame of the swimsuit edition.
My husband and I did not sit in two different rooms, on two different computers, chatting with each other on Facebook. Of course we sat next to each other, in the same room, and had a normal face-to-face conversation.
I am not thrilled the my husband is hooked on Facebook and finally understands my blogging, virtual social life addiction.
I did not let my toddler eat far more raw cookie dough than is healthy...for anyone!!
I did not freak out tonight when I couldn't find the box of birth control pills that the Dr gave me. I did not have to go upstairs to make sure that I didn't accidentally bring the box upstairs when I was bringing my husband his pills last night, I was not slightly concerned that I might have given my husband Yaz!!
I did not get most of the way through a re-design, then have to stop...ugh...I am not planning on once again changing up my sidebar goodies...it is not killing me that I never finish my own blog re-design. I am not itching to do more already, even though I am not even done with mine!!
I know since this post you have all been holding your breath with me, waiting to find out what we are going to do. (you haven't? well I'll tell you anyway....)
I called my midwife last Friday and we talked about the birth control option. I really don't like birth control and what it does to me emotionally and physically, but the other two options just aren't options right now. So we decided to give it a shot. I will be trying out a pill that I have never done before (Yaz) and she highly recommends. Also I will only be on it for three months so hopefully it won't be too bad.
My biggest fear is that in that time the cyst will grow too big and pregnancy will no longer be an option. I guess today is the day that I really say what I know I should do. Give up. Give up worrying and wondering about it. Make the best decision I know how and give the rest up. Its not in my hands anymore. Regardless of this cyst if God wants me to have more children I will, I have to give up my will, its not in my hands or by my hands. Its time to give up....I think its time to give up a little more than my cysts...but its been time to do that for a while now (I've talked about it.....but talk is cheap...no?)
So that is where we/I am at...(and that is why I almost gave my husband a birth control pill....whoops...)