No Words

On a night when no words come to me
few words just not many
As we prepare to vote tomorrow
I don't talk politics
I sit here and struggle with my decision to write daily
well except for yesterday obviously
Am I trying to force myself to be something I am not
or am I excusing myself from even trying.
I struggle with myself
and not just my blogging self
I struggle with my identity
am I who I want to be.
I am thinking myself into a corner
and then thinking in circles inside that corner.
I'm on the eve of big decisions
I don't just mean the political ones
So tonight I will just sleep on it
and have no words for much of anything.